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tired of life
02:41
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Time spent alone
Yeah it's starting to take its toll on me
Stuck inside my phone
Reaching out but yeah but nobody wants me
In their life anymore
I'm just so fucking bored
Of this place and sick of everyone
Around me, so guess I'll just take drugs and end it
Yeah fuck this
Wishing I was never born
But then it starts to kick in
Think I don't wanna die anymore
Am I okay?
Losing my sight
Image racing inside my head
So I lose faith
Guess that was life
Then I wake up, why am I not dead?
Do you think about me?
When he's busy and you're feeling lonely
Would you care if I'd leave?
This world before you said you were sorry
But I guess that's selfish
For me to even think about this
All this shit is hurting my head
I just wish I could talk to my dad and end it
Yeah fuck this
Wishing I was never born
But then it starts to kick in
Think I don't wanna die anymore
Am I okay?
Losing my sight
Image racing inside my head
So I lose faith
Guess that was life
Then I wake up why am I not dead?
I'll be okay, I'll be okay
I'll be okay it's all in my head
I'll be okay, I'll be okay cause nobody's better off dead
I'll be okay, I'll be okay
I'll be okay it's all in my head
I'll be okay I'll be okay cause nobody's better off dead
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I'm actually thinking about killing myself
And I don't know why
Yah I'm actually thinking about killing myself
But too scared to die
Yah life is so boring but sometimes it's okay
When I take something to slow down my brain
But I'm too scared to sleep now most of the time
Maybe I don't realize what I can be
People act like they care but only when I leave
And my minds racing and a thousand pills couldn't help me fall asleep tonight
If I don't change something, then I still don't feel any better so guess I will actually might
Kill myself today
'Cause my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Yeah my soul will be okay
Fuck
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3. |
stuck being me
03:14
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She doesn't like it when I talk too much
I'm getting tired of people acting like they give a fuck about me
She doesn't know why I think so much
She doesn't know why she fucking even likes being around me
Fuck life, I'm fine though
But why am I so moody for no good reason?
Just not the type so guess I just might blow my brains out this evening but
I'm tired of the same old bullshit
Everyone acts like they fucking know shit
About how it
About how it feels to be me
I'm just tired of the same old bullshit
Act like I'm fine but no one knows it
I'm just tired
I'm just tired of being me
But too scared to give up
But too scared to give up
Fuck life, I'm fine though
But why am I so moody for no good reason?
Just not the type so guess I just might blow my brains out this evening but
I'm tired of the same old bullshit
Everyone acts like they fucking know shit
About how it
About how it feels to be me
I'm just tired of the same old bullshit
Act like I'm fine but no one knows it
I'm just tired
I'm just tired of being me
Know I complain too much
Yeah, I know I complain too much
Yeah, I know I complain too much, yeah
It even annoys me
Know my life's not rough
Yeah, I know I'm not that fucked up
Just hate how I feel so stuck
Stuck being me
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4. |
dogs in my bed
01:51
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I don't know
What's up with all my particles again, yeah
Feeling so
Feeling like I'm not the only one in my head
Again, I don't know
Pretend, so I can feel so
And I don't know why I'm thinking about anything
So I'll say that I'm afraid again
A lost soul
Pretend that I just don't know something
Someday, I know I'll go
I'll go, I'll go, I'll go
Lose myself again
I won't
Is it all inside my head?
I don't know nothing
The innocence of myself I lend
For a home
Yeah I know
Yeah I don't know
Yeah she thinks she's losing me again
I don't know
Yeah the opposite of what my friends really think, so
Is it all gonna be okay in the end?
Yeah I don't know
I don't know
Don't know, don't know
Know again
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5. |
still lost
00:51
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No I don't really care anymore
No I don't really care anymore
No I don't care anymore
No I don't, no I don't, no I don't
Give a fuck
No I don't really care anymore
No, no I don't really care anymore
No I don't, no I don't, no I don't
Anymore
No I don't, no I don't, no I don't
Give a fuck
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6. |
hunger pains
02:57
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I wanted to tell you
But just not like this
How much you make me always feel like shit
Guess half the time, I might feel alright
But when you talk to me, I just lose my mind
Inside my head, guess that's where I'll live
Spent half my life worried about pointless shit
Missing everyone
Feel my only friends is my thoughts, all fucked up and stuck in my head
Moms just too busy
Memories of a dad
I hate how he's never going to know who I am
But guess it's okay, she thinks I'm cool I guess
But no one around me actually gives a shit
So
Yeah I just don't know if I'm so lost or just stupid again
Is it just in my head?
So
I guеss I don't know why I'm so lost, why'd I do this again?
Guess I'll pretend
That it's okay
Act likе I'm alright
'Cause nobody likes being around someone who's just like sorry for themself
Life doesn't seem that bad
It could be a lot worse so
I shouldn't be so sad
On the outside it seems you do this for pretend
But inside you're actually hurtin' I guess
But stop being a bitch, no one cares if you're sad
We're all sad as fuck so just make us all laugh
So
Yeah I just don't know if I'm so lost or just stupid again
Is it just in my head?
So
I guess I don't know why I'm so lost, why'd I do this again?
Guess I'll pretend
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When I'm without you by my side, I just don't feel okay
Another day goes by while I'm still lost inside my brain, yeah
Feel like she don't like me
But guess that I don't know
Delusional, I might be but yeah
Who really cares so
Yeah I'm just wasting time, in my thoughts again
But why do I feel at home when I'm lost inside my head?
I'm losing myself and just using drugs, just to blame
But everyday goes by and I still feel the fucking same
Guess I don't know, just don't know what to say
Guess I'll stay home, yeah
And listen to all the same
All the same songs, feel gone when I'm just lost inside my head
Been here too long, feels wrong when I'm just not laying in your bed
Guess it's okay
Guess at least I'm not dead
But I just feel lame, yeah
And I forgot what I said
But I know she knows that it will, will never be the same
So guess I'll just go back into, into my hiding place
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8. |
nightwalk
03:05
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They say every man goes blind one day in his heart
One day I know she's gonna say shе's better off without me
But I'm still sittin' hеre stuck in my own head
So don't wait for me
To let you down again
Yeah I love how she doesn't smile
Barely look me in the eyes
So let's lay here for a while
Stop thinkin' that you have to try
There's nothing to understand
No need for games or lies
And then she grabbed my hand
And said that she could die, and it'd be okay
So guess I'll say
That I feel the same way as you do
And it'd be alright
If we did die
'Cause I'd spend my last night with you
Would it be okay if I felt the same
Spent all my days thinking of you
Would you think I'm lame
If I did say
How I really felt
Felt about you
Would you be alright
If I left tonight
If I didn't try
To care about you
Would it take some time
Would you have to lie
If I did die
Die without you
Die without you
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